Someday! Hopefully!

Confessions of a dreaming soul

I don’t know from where to start. My mind is not quiet today…it’s shouting. So many things going on. I am quiet but not my mind….Reminding me of that quote…the one I had followed till I had completed quarter century – “Do what you want to do…not the one others want you to do”. This line was not just a simple sentence, it motivated me and pushed me to try harder for whatever I was aiming at that time. I found this quote on one study bench at college. I was just 18 years then with lots of hopes. One free soul!

Once upon a time my mind used to say “you have to do something in your life”. But I was late in figuring out how I could fulfill my dreams. I started running on the wrong track. I thought if I start earning I will be able to save money and I can fulfil my dreams.

Now after nearly 10 years of job-life I feel I am wrong. Isn’t it too long to realise that money is not everything? I have not saved enough money, I don’t know where my salary went and I have lost 10 years of my life doing really nothing!

Right now it’s 11.30pm. My son is sleeping and so is my mother. And I am just wondering sitting on the bed what I have done till now. This is not what I wanted to do. No.

Whatever you love, do it. Don’t be ashamed of doing it if you know that your work isn’t going to harm anybody. My mind have been constantly by my side – motivating me…even right now when I am regreting for wasting such a long time doing what I never wanted to do.

You might be wondering why I am writing all these! Why?

I have met many people like me having lots of dreams….but somewhere their dreams get lost….they get trapped. The money trap! One simple job shatters their dreams. Who doesn’t need money? But is money everything? Is there no place for passion, love and happiness? Can money get you everything?

Something is there inside me….. can’t figure it out…. something is there…. screaming… wanting me to come out of the trap! Telling me “Hey you are much better than this! Don’t be just another robot”

Hopefully someday somewhere I will meet “Real-Me” and congratulate for following dreams! Someday! Hopefully!